I am not ashamed to admit. I think it's a necessary trait for nurses to have, to remain compassionate throughout the personal, and intimate, and even those not so perfect moments. They feel good giving, sometimes with nothing expected in return. And they revel in silence in knowing that they have made a difference in even such a small way. It is enough to give them the incentive to get back in the hospital and to face the struggling, the sick, or just the demands what caring for others entails.
I am proud to be a nurse and a tad codependent. I work with other nurses who are just like me, some who have worked for decades but are still so softhearted towards their patients. The smiles in the morning are still there...it is because they know that they are needed.
When I decided to take a break from nursing to raise the children, I secretly missed the generosity of patients. There were those supermarket moments when we were in Germany, where couples would come up to hug me and thank me for helping them with their family. Sometimes I would see former patients in the clinic and I would just smile to myself, knowing that I made a small impact in their life. I was present and active for 4 of my friends' deliveries at the hospital, and there is nothing like seeing their pictures now and knowing that I was there intimately, from that first breath.
Since returning back to part time a year ago, I feel like part of my life has been reawakened. I look forward to the weekends with the challenge that I can be compassionate to a total stranger.
Just recently, a friend gave birth to twins at my hospital and she was placed under my care for my shift. A allowed for me to help her adjust her first few days breastfeeding and caring for her daughters; I felt that same feeling, of making that difference and that connection.
When you're a nurse you know that every day you will touch a life or a life will touch yours. ~Author Unknown
I decided to make a quilt for the twins, using fabrics from my stash, and making it large enough for them to share as they grow into toddlerhood. It's between the crib/twin size, showcasing a String Quilt motif.
That striped fabric is a Jane Sassaman that I had been keeping for a while.
To counter the obvious sharp edges, I decided to quilt in circles.
I'm warning you not to look to closely :) . The circles are NOT perfect...but I really didn't want them to be. You are talking to, after all, probably the most distracted quilter you will ever meet. My mind starts to wander when I quilt.
I think of the moment when....
the time that....
I wonder what happened to....
A look of the back. Love that wrinkly effect. The effort of making sure I filled in my spaces is well worth it.
I'm seeing the twins and their mama today. I hope they like it.